Before… I would have never say that I love you t…

Before…
I would have never say that I love you today because of fear the feeling would fade tomorrow.
For fear that you would think of me as your sister, I never did told you that I care.
‘I hate you’ was the only hurtful things that I could say to make you feel as hurt as I was.
I wouldn’t have taken your ungodly hours calls because I know I would see you when the sun rise.
Knowing that you would come when I asked, I have never missed you.

But now…
I miss you greatly because I know you would never come and see me again.
I would anything in the world to hear your voice again because even when pigs fly, I would never see you again.
I wish I have never said those words of hate because I don’t want you to remember me as that.
I want you to know that I care as much as your own family does regardless of what you think.
Today, right now, I would say that I do love you and the feeling will never change.

Waiting and not getting you in the end is like an eternity of pointless-ness but you were my first love and always will be. Sayang, I want you to know all that because the memory of you will never be lost in my head or my heart.

Hugs and kisses,
Nadia

Hairy Situation

Good news is that my hair is at its longest in 21 years *yay!!*

Not so good news is that I hate the fussy-ness of keeping it neat

So, on Tuesday morning I sent of 4 SMSes, one each to Fadil, B, Bal and Naz-chan. I didn’t get responses as quickly as I wanted to but it’s okay.

My SMS: “Girlfwen, do u think i look better wif long hair or short?”

SMS from Bal went something like: “I think… long hair… your boyfriend told me so.”
Okay… so who is my boyfriend? Hmmm

Response from Naz-chan: “No hair”
As keen as I am to shave my head ala Natalie Portman, I’ve not enough courage to do so. Maybe if Naz-chan would shave her head too, then I’ll do it

Tele-conversation with Fadil: “I think you should keep your hair. It makes you more mature and lady like.”
I dowan to be mature and lady like , I want to be immature and child like.

Haven’t had any feedback from my style guru (that’s you B) yet. I think I won’t cut it all off. Just to reshape it maybe. *sigh*

I can’t seem to plan because if I do then it won’t happen. I get better results when I do something on impulse. *sigh*Pasal rambut pun kena banyak pikir. Temee betul.

Yes, I am in LOVE. In LOVE with a needle, two dona…

Yes, I am in LOVE.
In LOVE with a needle, two donations and a cute lion to boot.
Donated a pint of my blood at the GE towers lobby.
Donated RM10 for GE’s ChildrenCare programme and got a cute lion.
Yes, I am in LOVE with those things.
Sorry to disappoint.

And yes B.
You are my 7 am IM buddy.
It’s a cheap way to stay in touch.
Ehehehe…
BTW, 7 am isn’t an ungodly hour.

I woke up today smiling at the new day It’s a rare…

I woke up today smiling at the new day
It’s a rare thing (me smiling first thing in the morning) these days
I walk up to my closet and pick my best
The things that are worn out but I know they make me look good
I pick out the cutest earings too
I then skiped downstairs and kiss my mom and dad (before breakfast mind you)
and helped my sis into her uniform too
The boys said “Demam la tu”
“Jeles la tu” I said with a smile
Back to my room I did and plop on my bed
Turn on the laptop to check if B is up but I blog instead to say…

… it’s the best to be in LOVE!

Okay now I have to go!

Slaying My Own Dragons

I don’t wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free
I don’t wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
Oh no will survive
Unless somebody’s on my side
Don’t wanna be
No, no, no one else.
I’d rather rescue myself.

I don’t get it when people cannot accept the fact that I, at the age of 21 this year, am still single. They say someone as beautiful, independent and intelligent should not be still in the sigle status. The way I see it, if I am beautiful, independent and intelligent, why should I not be single? Being those alone doesn’t give me all the rights in the world to be in a relationship, does it?

So WHY am I still single?

The answer is simple really. I LIKE being single.

After all those teenage desperate years to have a boyfriend, I can finally can accept that I can make do without one. I realized that I don’t need a guy to complete me as a person. I do not need him to make me more beutiful. I can be equally independent without him being with me all the time. I am not intelectually challenged without his brain to compliment mine.

I can honestly say that I am not ready for a relationship yet and I don’t think I know when I will ever be. Right now I’m exploring myself and grow as a person. The way I see it, if I follow the Yellow Brick Road towards my ambitions, the right kind of person would sneak up on me sooner or later. It’s more satisfying that way than being pining for someone and afterwards getting my heart broken all the time.

I can slay my own dragons.
I can dream my own dreams.
My knight in shining armor is me.
So I’m gonna set me free.

Another thing that makes me love being single is the fact that I have my own liberty to do my own thing at my own pace and time. I mean, I can talk to my girlfriends for hours without worrying that he might want to call, eat my meal without ’sharing’ more than half of my food and flirt whenever I feel like it. I am not going to give that up just yet.

Of course I would like to settle down with someone one day. I would be more than happy to get married and have my own family to take care of. It’ll happen when the time come but until then i’m happy this way.

So now will you stop and asking me why the heck am I still single?

After The Next 5 Weeks

I’ll miss…

…waking up early and going to work.

I’ll miss…

…chatting, joking and gossiping with Viji.

I’ll miss…

…kacau-ing Shiou Hooi on a daily basis.

I’ll miss…

…the free edition of the Sun that I read every morning before doing my work.

I’ll miss…

…the whole buzz of the Actuarial Department.

I’ll miss…

…kacau-ing Intan and Mini from Marketing every now and then.

I’ll miss…

…my monthly pay cheque of RM675 (if I don’t miss any working days).

I’ll miss…

…Sara, who greets me ‘Good Morning!’ even before I open the door to the Actuarial Department.

I’ll miss…

…making copies with the photocopying machine.

I’ll miss…

…reading manga at MPH for free every lunch hour.

What I’m trying to say is…

I WILL MISS GREAT EASTERN!

In The Last 10 Weeks

I miss…

…waking up early in the morning and going to classes at the faculty everyday.

I miss…

…my ex-roomies and their crazy friends.

I miss…

…hanging out with B and her wacky Mass Comm friends now and then.

I miss…

…gossiping EVERY night with my ex-roomies and my friends.

I miss…

…being in boy-crazy or hentai mode with the gang xD

I miss…

…MY bed in 3B-02-23 so much. Heck! I miss the old room.

I miss…

…seeing all my fave lecturers and kacau-ing them on a daily basis.

I miss…

…seeing my ‘abang-abang kesayangan’ and kacau-ing them every now and then at the faculty.

I miss…

…the whole CS112 June 2003 intake gang and the crazy-fun times we have together.

I miss…

…hanging out at Cendekia at least once a week to spy on other people.

I miss…

…the Actuarial Science Club activities even though they’re the same every semester.

What I’m trying to say is…

I MISS BEING IN UiTM!